Plans

This summer is shaping up to be fantastic. I have next week off from work! On Monday we are going over to my parents for a turkey dinner with everyone. An afternoon of playing cards, dominoes and Apples to Apples! Wednesday we are going to Shipshawana with Rob's parents. When the weekend hits it's Festival time!!! I'm so pumped, I love Festival.

We have a few parties in June. The end of June will bring Amanda home. I have a date night with Drake to see Toy Story 3. Shannon and Mike's wedding in the day before our one year anniversary.

July has Renee's bridal shower that I'm planning. Fireworks for the 4th. I love fireworks. July will book up quickly I'm sure, so if you want to cement any plans get them in soon.

August seems pretty tame so far.

September is Renee's wedding. I can't wait to get my dress. It's pretty.

it goes both ways

I felt so good today. I woke up about 9 and had the urge to go walking. I rarely get this urge. I mean look at me!!! hahahaha. I usually walk around the apartment complex for up to 30 minutes. I decided to try out the trail by the apartment. I don't know why I've never done this before. It was so nice out today. I only came across one other gentleman on the trail. I took it all the way to Eastern. Instead of just turning around I went down Eastern to 60th to the apartments. I made it through the entire Circus album by Britney Spears.

When I got home I realized I had walked just over an hour. I want to do this more than once a week. Next time though when I get to Eastern I'll just turn around on the trail. Seems safer than walking down Eastern and 60th.

I know it isn't much, but I'm proud of myself. I had a frustrating week up to this point. I was mostly frustrated at me. Which then gets me frustrated at almost everything. So this was a break through for me.

Oh and I picked up the new Kate Nash album from the library on Saturday!!!!

food coma

I seriously think I had a small food coma last night. On Kat's suggestion we tried the Mexican place by our house. It was really good. We had an appetizer or queso with chirizo. For dinner I had a taco, enchilada, and the chicken off of what was suppose to be a chalupa. (I don't understand their version and it had beans on it. Yuck) For dessert I tried the deep fried cheese cake. I washed this all down with two beers.

After we got home I dinked around for a bit. Then I laid down on the couch and fell asleep until 10ish. I dinked around for about 45 minutes and then went to bed for good. I woke up at about 7:30ish this morning. I can't believe how much I slept.

bad recipes

I'm purposely freaking myself out here. For shits and giggles I looked up the sandwich I had a Red Robin on Friday to see exactly how bad it was for me. (I had my doctors appointment today and I gain some weight back) The damn sandwich was over 900 calories!!!! With the fries and beer I had with it that should have been all I ate that day. Then I took a look at the almost the same sandwich in wrap form. It should be less right? The fried onion straws were not on there, and it's a spinach wrap. Nope over 1100 calories. What the hell? Then I took a look at the salad my mom loves and gets extra dressing for. Without the extra dressing we are looking at 1400 calories. I need to stay away from restaurants! It's crazy how many calories are in stuff.

I'm hoping this scares the shit out of me when I go to restaurants or keep me the hell out.

What did I do?

I found a bruise today when I was showering. It's on my left calf. Pretty big. I have no idea how it got there. I'm thoroughly confused.

Hooray for me

I went to my weight to wellness appointment thinking I've gained weight. I mean I've been laid up with a bum foot and I haven't been eating the healthiest. I was diving into comfort foods hard core. Drum roll please....................... I didn't gain anything!!!! My weight stayed the same. I couldn't be happier. Now I just need to get this foot better so I can go out for walks and stuff.

My homework for next week is to get one serving a fruit into each day. For some reason this is hard for me. It shouldn't be. I like enough types of fruit to enjoy something everyday. We talked about trying new foods too. Rob was happy to hear that! I bought some strawberries. ($1 at Meijer this week) and some melon. I even cut up the melon when I got home to make it easy to access. In my food journal I now have to keep track of carbs. This I'm afraid of. Sure I can keep it to 1,000 calories and over 50 grams of protein per day, but I love me some carbs. At least she didn't give me a set goal. Just keep track of it for this week then we'll talk about it.

I'm in a "I need to be better at............" mood.
cleaning the bathrooms on a regular basis
laundry
returning emails (which is weird. It annoys me to no end when people don't return emails/voice mails)
opening up
being honest with myself
following through with my late night hopes and To Do List for the next day!

And here it is. To Do for Wednesday
Fold laundry
Clean bathrooms
I'll just keep it nice and simple.

16 and Pregnant

I can't watch this show anymore. (but I totally will) Today it made me want a baby right the hell now, and made me realize that I'm going to be feeling the same way as some of these girls at 30 plus years old. I'm not going to know exactly what to do all of the time, and there won't be a show for me to go on! Also I told myself I should be cleaning the apartment. If I can't keep the apartment clean when I have the free time how the hell am I going to get this stuff done once I have a kid? Honesty I think I was just in a mood until after we went to Jay and Theresa's tonight for cards.

I got my sleep results in the other day. I have mild sleep apnea. I stop breathing about 8 times an hour when I sleep. I have to go back in to sleep with a CPAP in a couple Mondays. Part of me totally wants this machine to work so I can wake up refreshed. But I don't want to have to sleep with this machine every night. Does anyone use one of these?

My foot is doing much better. Mom and I traded cars for this past week. She has an automatic. There was no way I was going to be able to drive my stick last week. Thanks Mom!

Honestly

Friday was pretty good. I went to Julie's after work, munching on the sandwich and healthy food I brought. Of course Julie had yummy food at her house. I had a couple bagel chips with hummus (which I have at home) and a handful of chips with some taco dip. I left Julie's with some new earrings bought and feeling really good. At Juke's I had two Cosmos and left early. I was super tired. Rob had gotten a ride there and a ride home! Thanks Mike, Kat, Jason and Misty!!!! I was hungry, on my way home I stopped by Taco Bell. I can justify this with "Well at least it's not fried"

Saturday I went and saw Where The Wild Things Are in Hastings for free. It was awesome. I don't know how the kids today would like it. It was very nostalgic for me. There was an intermission in the middle of the movie. At first I was like what the hell? Mom said they do that for the free kids movies. I had this little girl in front of me that kept bouncing back in her chair. It was driving me crazy. Note to self don't go see kids movies at the theater.

That night I was going to meet Taylor and her friends at The BOB. I got there early and parked about 4 blocks away Awesome get some exercise in while parking for free. I went into Fridays and had my first Cosmo. I was invited to sit with some people across the bar when I got there. That was the beginning of wonderful night. Or so I thought. I got the The BOB (for free) and had another Cosmo. We were inside the Crush. I left to hit up the bathroom. On my way back I attempted to walk down two steps that I knew were there. There were not very well lite. I biffed it hardcore. Fell on my face, my purse went flying it's contents went flying. I thought someone was going to come over and kick me out for being drunk, which I wasn't. I ended up sitting down for a bit. Grabbed another drink and limped away. I stayed for about another hour before it really started to hurt. Now is the time I regretted parking 4 blocks away! And I have a stick. I swore so much on my way home.

Sunday I was suppose to drive to Easter dinner in Troy. I couldn't do that. Poor Rob had to drive. He's driven so much this past week. Thursday we went to Toledo and he drove. Easter dinner was fun. I had a glass of Sangria with my grandma. Dinner was really good, and I think I handled my portion sizes well. I didn't over eat as usual. At this point my foot is puffy as hell and has a big dark red spot on the left top. I was showing my cousin's little girl and said look at my fat foot. She looks at me and says If you eat bad food you get fat. I laughed and said yes, yes you do.

Today my lovely mom got up and took me to work as I can't drive. After an hour at work I couldn't take it anymore. The pain and annoyance of my foot was awful. I called her back and she was still in town! Score one for me. She took me to my doctor's. I had x-rays done. I fractured my 5th metacarpals. If it was one bone over I was going to be referred to a specialist. I now have to wear a boot on my left foot. After 3 weeks if it isn't feeling any better I have to go back. Yuck. My mom and I have switched cars so I can at least drive around when needed.

Headaches can suck it.

I had my sleep study last night. My technician was awesome, the wire not so much. I had to get up a few times during the night to pee. I manged to only get up once. I woke up with a headache. I have been for the last couple of nights. I have one right now. The tend to go away pretty quickly, but it sucks.

After getting up and trying to brush my hair (that gel stuff is hard to brush through) Rob met me for breakfast before my weekly doctors appointment at 7:30 this morning. What a sweet husband.

That appointment didn't go as planned. I gained back some of the 6.5 pounds I've lost. Oh and I know why. The weekends kick my ass, where I need to kick it's ass. I meet with Erin the nutritionist today. I need to eat a snack every 3-4 hours. We talked about my plans for this weekend. It's set up to fail. A jewelery party after work on Friday then straight to the bar Juke's. Saturday I'm headed to The BOB for a "My divorce is final" party. Sunday is Easter dinner over in Detroit.

Here's my plan. Friday Kat is going to meet me at work to head over to Julie's. I am going to have a snack in my car. I'm going to try to stay away from whatever food Julie has out. On our way to the bar I want to have some sort of dinner already packed. The standard peanut butter sandwich. Once at the bar only have one drink, so I better make it a good one. Saturday morning/afternoon head to the gym. Saturday night at The BOB I'm gonna dance my ass off! Again one drink. Sunday I'm driving to Detroit. I will eat smaller portions which will be very hard. But I'm most excited for dessert. Aunt Denise asked us to make it. I started looking through the cookbooks. What I found was Watermelon Sorbet and Blueberry Sherbet. Each about 100 calories for a cup!!!!! We'll make (and by we I mean Rob) a pound cake to go with it. So I can't go wrong with dessert.

So there's my weekend plan. I know you didn't need to know about it all, but now I feel accountable for my actions. I'll honestly let you know how goes it.

The day of three doctors

Well places that all have doctors. First I went to my Weigh to Wellness appointment. I've been in the program for a month now. I'm down 6.5 pounds!!! I treated myself to a new purse. (I also got a new shirt, cookbook and shoes)

Second was to a sleep doctors. I most likely have sleep apnea. I'm scheduled for a sleep study on Monday night. I wonder how this will go?

Third was up to Butterworth to see Theresa and Garrett. He is adorable. Dark hair like Theresa. I'm told he had blue eyes, but he slept the entire time I was up there with the exception of giving me what I call the Stink Eye, but Jay and Theresa call it Pirate Eye. It was nice to up there without anyone else there. I got to hold him the entire time. Rob would have gone but after work the other day he fell down our stairs and maybe sprained his ankle.

Plan of attack this week. Work out, and take care of the house a little bit at a time.

I was dreaming that Rob and I lived with Bob and Val,(his parents) but in my Grandma and Grandpa Holzhausen's house. We lived in the back bed room. I was in the bathroom taking a bath. I ran to the bedroom to get something sexy to wear also grabbing a robe. before I could put the robe on. Bob opened the bathroom door. I quickly covered myself with the robe and ran to the bedroom. He followed and Val came too. Rob was in the room and just sat there talking to his parents while I awkwardly tried to fully put on the robe and cover myself up.

I don't remember what happened after that.

I did have another dream that included Rob and I getting ready for work/school. I kept looking out the window to make sure the bus hadn't come yet. I was really worried we would be late.

What a lazy day for me. Slept in late, a long nap and finished reading a book. I'm in a mood, upset that I'm so lazy. I need to kick my own ass into gear. About so many aspects of my life. First let's get this lazy thing taken care of. Then I'll work on $$$$$$. Oh and my will power is total crap. To be fair my will power with food is getting better, but it's not where I need it to be.

On the bright side of things. Theresa and Jay are having their baby on Monday. The entire family is super excited.

what I got done

I finished almost everything on my list. Or at least attempted. Some pictures are up on our walls. I need to print some more for us. I tried to call Joshie but got nothing. I talked to Jessie, one of the kids. And the big one I didn't finish was cleaning off my computer desk. Didn't even try.

Modern Times

I'm staying in today with the possible exception of going grocery shopping. (Meijer and Family Fare have kick as deals this week. Check it out.) I have so much to do that never seems to get done. I'm putting my To Do list here and I'll let you know how much gets done. I'm giving myself until Monday night, because that's my Sunday.
To Do
1. Finish laundry
2. Bathrooms
3. Call Joshie and the kids
4. Hang pictures, get pictures
5. Figure out wedding stuff
6. Dinner for the week/grocery shopping
7. Dust
8. My computer tables needs cleaned off
9. And so much more!!!!!!!

Using your Benny

Wow it's been awhile. A long long while. Most of you know the gist of what's going on in my world. Here's some things you might not know.

We had our talk with my Aunt Amy about our compatibility. Well sort of. Amy accidentally left our papers at her office, but we had a good talk anyway. On the way home from Wisconsin Uncle Roger was asking questions about the ceremony. I didn't realize how much went into the ceremony. I'm so happy it's family helping us with this. We asked Aunt Denise to create a small wedding cake for us to cut into. She makes the most exquisite cakes. Now we have to decide what we want. My cousin Ian is going to be our DJ/Emcee at the reception. I will say it again I love having family involved in our wedding.

With the new year approaching here are a couple of things I would like to have happen. The obvious one is loose weight. The next one is organize this apartment. Get my picture frames set up, get the closet in shape, stuff like that. I only want to do these two for now. If I think of any more I'll add them as the year goes.

Yay for the flu shot!!!! Rob isn't feeling great and I didn't catch it.

Does anyone else get a little stressed out money wise around Christmas? I normally don't, but this year it's hitting me. This is going to sound bad but, I'm such a giving person and I don't feel I'm giving enough. Plus we are so booked for the weekends I haven't left anytime for Amanda. And everything we're doing will cost money. At least I am getting a raise, and my family Christmas is going to be on Jan. 1, so one more paycheck for me there.

Okay sorry for the bitching.

Do you ever get excited over dumb stuff? I most definitely do. Rob and I decided to join our car insurances together. I currently have Progressive. Rob went online to get a quote. It came up really cheap. I called to see if I could get that price and cancel mine. I was transferred to a couple people because the first guy didn't get the same price we did online. The last guy was awesome. He complimented Rob on how he got it so low and fixed us right up. The excitement for me came from the customer service. It was amazing and I really liked the guy helping us.

There's nothing wrong with me I found out today. Well as far as my blood is concerned. I had blood drawn on the 31st and my doctor was confident that nothing was wrong so we scheduled an appointment for January to talk about it. Last Thursday I got a call from the health clinic saying that Dr. Bach needed to see me as soon as possible because my results were in. I was flipping out for a week about this. Thinking the worst thing ever. I go in today and all I have is high cholesterol. That's it. Nothing more serious. I told the doctor I had been flipping out because of what the nurse told me about getting in asap. Also I'm almost out of drugs and need more samples or a prescription. That's going to take until Monday or Tuesday. I was suppose to hear from Metro Health to get me in to see a specialist to look at my throat. They haven't called yet because the health clinic hasn't faxed them my paper work. That was suppose to happen two weeks ago. The pains I've been having since August are still around I told my doctor. Oh those are still there? you need to see a neurologist about that. Fucking great why didn't you tell me this months ago you jack ass. I am so pissed about all of this.I'm going drinking tonight.

bad blood

Girls I've been a little lax with my gym goings so far this week. I didn't go on Monday, but Rob and I registered for wedding gifts at two places. My legs were killing me so I'm counting that as work out. Tuesday was election day, so lots of TV watching. Wednesday I did go. Spent about 20 minutes on the treadmill before the back of my heel started to bleed. Apparently my right foot is longer than my left or something like that. I don't know. But once I was done on the machine I went to step off and fell. I wish I could tell you it was hysterical with the belt still running and all that. Nope just a boring fall. Now we come to today. I was all pumped. I was going to go through my shoes and find different ones to wear. I clocked out of work about 5 minutes early (shhhh don't tell anyone) I had a voice mail and three missed calls from my doctors office. Last week I had blood drawn and an appointment in January to talk to the doctor about it. The voice mail said that my doctor needed to see me about the test results as soon as possible, he next open appointment. Of course the nurse couldn't tell me anything.

But what could be wrong with me that I have to come in so early??? I mean January was good enough if there wasn't anything wrong. I was/am flipping out. Needless to say I didn't go to the gym today. This is going to eat at me for an entire week. I couldn't get in until next Friday because of my schedule. Aggghhhh what am I going to do until then? I'll tell you what. Let this fester and boil until I drive Rob crazy with it. That's what I'm going to do.

Annoying people

I talked to the dumbest person at work the other day. Check this out.

I answer the phone and this female voice comes on and says I need to check my credit limit. I ask for her name and only catch the last. (that tends to happen to me) I pull up the account and it belongs to a Benjamin (insert last name here). The girl gave me the right last name. I start asking my security questions. There's a bit of hesitation in her voice. There's a comment on the account that says "Wallet stolen 10/31" So I know for a fact this isn't Benjamin. I try to call the girl out on it by saying I couldn't help her and she needs to go into the bank at this point. "Why? all I need is my credit limit because my card stopped working" I wanted to slap her silly and say Are you fucking serious? You want me to believe you are a girl named Benjamin? I did say this though. Well you have to go into the bank with picture id so they can be sure you're who you say you are. At this point most fraudsters would realize they aren't getting anywhere and hang up. But oh no not this one. She was still begging me to help her. She finally got off when I told her I couldn't help her even if I wanted to. How dumb do you have to be? If you steal a wallet you use the cards until they don't work then ditch them. You don't call the bank, who has caller id, and ask about them. Especially if you're not even the same sex and the cardholder. I ended up calling fraud to let them know.

Here's another story for you.

I was in Family Fare self check out. One women in front of me doing her grocery's. Something rang up for the wrong price and she turns to me and "wanted to ask me a favor. Can you please go look in the aisle and see if this is on sale?" Wait...what? No I will not. I'll do you a favor and watch your shit while YOU go look. I ended up telling her "No, I would feel more comfortable if you asked someone that worked here" She started to turn around to look for someone and ended up asking the people in the next lane if they knew. They were all like um we don't work here. When she did find out that it was just the white bread not the wheat that was on sale, am I a bad person for thinking yeah that's right, read the sign better crazy now you have to pay more.?