wait for it......

This morning I had a dream that seemed real and like a good idea. I knew I was dreaming and said to myself okay when when this dream is over I need to act on it. My alarm when off. In real life I hit snooze and feel back asleep, and had the same dream again, but a little different. In dream world I thought I was really doing what I wanted. It wasn't until my alarm went off again that I realized I was dreaming again. I finally woke up and took action.

I just woke up from a nap and had a crazy dream. I was in Meijer with a couple of friends waiting for Krysta. (friend from work) When she got there it was my birthday. A cake was brought out and all of my friends came around the corner from the Kool-aid isle. The most exciting thing was all of my old friends were there. You know the ones you lost track off because you moved. For me it was a ton of Ohio friends and some from Mac Shack in Grand Rapids. One friend that was there was Newmeyer and his mom. After awhile the party moved to my parents house in the garage. It turned into an engagement party for Rob and myself. Everyone was there. Kat and Amanda were getting the food ready. Pizza in the oven in the garage. I was talking to Newmeyer's mom about the wedding trying to be real quit about my dress, not knowing where Rob was in the room. Kat came up to me and said Rob just heard about your dress. I went to go find him to see if he was alright with it, or mad at me. I saw his face........
Just then real Rob woke me up so I wouldn't sleep so long.

I went to the gym yesterday. I weighed myself when I was done. I am +6 pounds. Which sucks much ass. I'm not going to be able to go tomorrow. I am getting the car from Mom. I can go Thursday. Friday's out though. I want to head up to the cabin as soon as possible. I will take some long walks probably up there though with Rob. He just doesn't know it yet!

wait for it

Last Sunday was Dinner Party. It was so much fun. Thank you to everyone that made it out. I definitely want to keep this up.

Monday I went to see Sex in the City with Angie. I wasn't a huge fan of the show, but I liked it. For whatever reason I felt like I needed to be more grown up in my life. Like how I'm acting now is just a phase, that I'm not a real grown up. I know what I would need to do to become more grown up, but I don't think I could give it all up. Maybe that's who I am. The adult that never grew up. The one that still thinks burping and farting are hilarious, won't match my socks, have and make Ugly Dolls, and all the other things that seem to be me.

I have to tell you about this guy that called into work today. As some of you know there is an automated system you have to go through before you get a live person and pretty much any big corporation. This guy gets to me and I say Welcome to the Bank. This is Brooke. May I have your name please? He gives his name. I ask for his account number or SSN. He says he just gave it to the other lady. (Automated system, I love when people thinks it's real) I apologized an said the numbers he punched it doesn't come over to me. No problem he'll give it to me again. The next thing I hear is this man punching the numbers into this phone!! What the hell? When he's done I tell him I need to to give the number to me. He punches them in again. I have to tell him that I am a live person and when he punches the numbers into his phone all I get are beeps and I don't know what the numbers are. He sounds confused and goes well I don't know what he beeps mean either. Then proceeds to punch it in a third time. I'm a little pissed at this time. He comes back on and I have to tell him again I am not a machine but a live human being and I need to to say the numbers to me. He STILL doesn't get it. I say sir I need you to give me the numbers out loud. Like if the card starts with a 1 I need you to say one, not push it in the phone pad. He finally gets it and gives me the number. Kicker is turns out I couldn't even help him.

Not good progress

I didn't go to the gym the rest of this week. I've been getting sick and having to leave work early. I tired to get in to see my doctor but he's out of town. Then I was going to talk to a nurse and got her voice mail. She never called me back and she's going out of town for a couple weeks. So I ended up buying some medicine at Meijer. I hope it works. I can't afford to not stay at work everyday.

Speaking of affording things, I can't. I want to get my hair done. I think I'm over the black hair. I now have to save up the money and decide what I want.

Tomorrow is Dinner Party. I am hoping it turns out fun as hell.

Pointy colors

Gym time!!! My favorite.

I did pretty much the same thing I did last time. Ran on the elliptical for 11 minutes then circuit then 2 miles on the bike. I made it all the way through without feeling/getting sick. Yay for me. The other day I had to buy new workout pants, mine had a hole in the back that could become a split at any moment. I had to get a new sports bra too. I must have gotten my old one a couple boob sizes smaller. I was falling out. I love my new one. It's bright pink and it fits!!!

Last night Kat came over for her birthday dinner. We took her out to Chinese. Very yummy. We got her this really awesome mosaic window wall hanging. I also made her her very own ugly doll. It's cool, I love it. (maybe if you're lucky you can get one too!)

Rob and I are trying a new recipe tonight. Roasted chicken with Basil Walnut Pesto. It's cooking right now and making our apartment smell kick ass. I don't see how this can go wrong. I need to get back into cooking more. Rob does most of the cooking. He rocks.

Things are gonna change......I can feel it

Holy Crap things have got to change. Friday night I surprised Rob with tickets to go see Pop Evil at the Intersection. I saw Teddy Doran. I worked with him at Damon's way way back when. It was nice to see him and easy to talk to him. You know what I mean?! You don't see someone for almost 10 years and you pick up like you talked to them yesterday. Instead of feeling all awkward and have nothing to say. So I was filling him in on my life. Just the big things. Getting married, four tattoos, where I work, and of course that I drink beer now. Hahaha and that I drink legally for that matter now too!!! Teddy filled me in on some of the guys. All of who still work at restaurants, Eric Deacon and Bill Palmer are both still in town. I wonder if Deacon still has my flute? Probably not. It was a piece of crap back then.

After Teddy went back to get more beer and hang out with his friends I got to thinking. The last time Teddy saw me I was about * pounds lighter. I couldn't believe I had gained that much in 10ish years. What the hell have I been doing with my body? I mean I know what I've been doing and where most of the weight came from. My time in Ann Arbor. I ate so horribly. I was depressed and bored most of the time. So guess what? I ate. I kind of got it together in Ohio. I lost 35 pounds, had to buy new clothes. It was awesome. Then I moved back to Michigan. Living with Jay was not helpful to my diet. We ate out so much. I gained it all back and TONS more. I've even gained more since Rob and I have been together. I know most people will "let themselves go" once in a relationship, but I was never together before the relationship. I have a long way to go. AHHHHHHHH

In other news I'm feeling a little less stressed about the wedding. Rob and I are working on a cost list. I feel good about it. He should be getting an email back soon about the tents, tables and what not. Monday I'm calling about pig roasting. We figure flowers will be awesome and inexpensive at Horrocks. (funny little thing, my mom got her flowers from there too) We found some invitations that we like. Here is a question I want to pass along to my married friends. How soon should you registrar for gifts? I have a time line from a bride magazine and it says 9 months before the wedding. That seems a little too early for me. Do you really do it that early?

BOOK REPORT
I finished reading The Deep End of the Ocean. I really enjoyed it. I had to make an effort to understand the character Beth. I'm not like her in any way shape or form. In the end though I did like the way she thought. She was stronger in some ways than I would have been. I don't want to say too much in case you want to read it.


*not going to say how much but it's enough to make me sick

Gym report!!!

I went after taking VTO at work. (we were sooooo dead) I increased my time on the elliptical to 11 minutes before the circuit. After the circuit I did the bike for 2 miles. It was nice. I could read while pedaling.

icky sicky

I went to the gym tonight. I didn't stay long. Monday and Tuesday I left work early because I was sick. So no gym for me. I made it through work and decided I could go work out. I ran for 10 minutes and made it through almost all of the circuits before I had to run to the bathroom. I hate my body right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think it might have something to do with heart burn/acid reflux. I'm going to try to get in to see the doctor soon. And to make matters worse I've gained 3 pounds. Crap. I'm going to try again with the gym tomorrow.

I had a dream that I was smoking last night. It was so real. The kind where I needed to check my purse to see if there were any in it. Nope. Hasn't been for awhile. Yay!!!!!!! At least I'm doing something good for my body.

Rockstars

Thank you to everyone that came out last night to see Amanda. It was awesome. There were so many people. Champs saved us tables outside with was great. And a very special thanks to my sister!!!! We couldn't have done it without her.

I was excited at having everyone there. It never ceases to amaze me the crowd Amanda can pull in. I love that everyone wants to see her when she's home. It's hard to put into words, but I can feel the love everyone has for her, and it makes me love everyone for that. I know that if I only came home about once a year I would want to see as many people as I could.

Next summer I'll see her more than usual with the wedding. I won't know what to do with myself. I'll probably get sick of her!!! hahahahaha never. Speaking of the wedding here is what's going on so far.

The date has been set. June 13th. We booked the chapel at Charlton Park. The chapel is old and beautiful. I don't think we are going to decorate it much. Let it's natural beauty shine, and that way I won't have to have family and friends do it. The reception is at Rob's mom and dad's. We'll have to rent a tent and all that jazz. After the reception there will be a bonfire for anyone that wants to stay. We'll be roasting a pig and for those of you that don't do pork there will be turkey as well. We want to make the sides dishes ourself. That way we will have exactly what we want. I'm recruiting volunteers to help us a day or two before the wedding. If you are interested please let me know. Yes it's a year away, but I'm trying to get things in order as much as I can. Well maybe not order, a good idea of what we have to work with. I was telling some of you at the bar last night. I don't want to stress out any of my family and friends. I'd much rather take that burden myself. This has a lot to do with how I am. I don't think I'll be stressed but I do like to have a game plan. I love making lists. My list right now is a very rough draft. With any luck I can start getting things crossed off.

So if you have any helpful ideas for me. Bring it.

Sleeping in

Sleeping in is a beautiful thing. The best thing about sleeping in today is I should be able to stay up late tonight. We are going to Champs to hang out with Amanda before she leaves. I'm excited. Oh check this out Rob and I have a taxi service. Megan is awesome and is going to pick us up and take us to the bar, wait for us to have boat loads of fun and then take us home. I love my sister.

I didn't go to the gym on Thursday as planned. I know get after me, but I have a very good reason for not going. Amanda called and wanted to get some dinner. Since I only see her once a year she pretty much trumps everything and everyone while in town.

Last night we had Jared over. (Little boy I used to watch) His sisters were busy which worked out quite nicely. He cracks me up. All the trash talk while we played the Wii. Jason, Theresa, and Drake came over too. He cracks me up too! Saying Thank You after everything. Giving kisses out when they left, even to Jared. Having the boys over last night got to me thinking about kids. Are ours going to be as cool as them? How will we handle the bratty times? Will we be good parents? I know that things will be just fine, we'll do a good job, but these are the things I worry about.

I'm feeling better today about the friends situation from last post. I think it's because everyone is coming out tonight. Granted it's to see Amanda, but maybe we can still do something like this all on our own.

I just got back from the gym. I took a step class today. Holy crap am I out of shape. It felt really great when I was done though. I can't wait until I could do that class with my eyes closed. The class was one hour. I didn't do my circuit training. Rob had started dinner. I didn't know how long the class was and I don't want to over do it too soon. There was a point when I thought I was going to throw up. Yikes. The teacher said I was picking up on the steps pretty quick. And I made a friend! Her name is Sierra. She wanted me to stick around for the next class, Zumba. I told her maybe next time.

Speaking of friendships I'm going through that phase again where I don't feel like an awesome friend. Some of it has to do with I'm not that close to many I consider friends. I'm going to try to be better. At least make the effort on my end. I know everyone is busy and I don't want to nag.

Rob is leaving tonight to his parents to go to Shipsawanna tomorrow. I want to go so bad. I love that place.

Here is my new blog. I figured more people might actually read this one seeing as you need a LJ account to read my other one.

This will now be an area for me to keep track of the progress of my life. A progress report of sorts if you will. Stuff like work, relationships,ideas, and mostly the gym.

I have recently become distraught with the way I feel about my body. I have joined a gym by my house and plan on going three times a week at least. I want to post how I'm doing. How long I've gone each time and what I've done. Documenting this will keep my ass in check.Which is a good thing seeing as I purchased a year membership.

I'm not going to tell you how much I weigh for fear of shocking you. I mean how can a five foot girl weigh that much? I'll tell you how, laziness. So instead I will say today I weigh X and once a month I'll get weighed at the gym and report +/- here.

Today I went after work. I was going to attend a cardio class, but my mom came over with two of my cousins. I wanted to spend some time with them. I went on the Elliptical for 8 minutes beforand after my circuit training. Yes I go to a women's only gym with the circuits. I like it though and love the idea of going to classes.

I'll attack other aspecst of my life next time. This girl is beat.