Using your Benny

Wow it's been awhile. A long long while. Most of you know the gist of what's going on in my world. Here's some things you might not know.

We had our talk with my Aunt Amy about our compatibility. Well sort of. Amy accidentally left our papers at her office, but we had a good talk anyway. On the way home from Wisconsin Uncle Roger was asking questions about the ceremony. I didn't realize how much went into the ceremony. I'm so happy it's family helping us with this. We asked Aunt Denise to create a small wedding cake for us to cut into. She makes the most exquisite cakes. Now we have to decide what we want. My cousin Ian is going to be our DJ/Emcee at the reception. I will say it again I love having family involved in our wedding.

With the new year approaching here are a couple of things I would like to have happen. The obvious one is loose weight. The next one is organize this apartment. Get my picture frames set up, get the closet in shape, stuff like that. I only want to do these two for now. If I think of any more I'll add them as the year goes.

Yay for the flu shot!!!! Rob isn't feeling great and I didn't catch it.

Does anyone else get a little stressed out money wise around Christmas? I normally don't, but this year it's hitting me. This is going to sound bad but, I'm such a giving person and I don't feel I'm giving enough. Plus we are so booked for the weekends I haven't left anytime for Amanda. And everything we're doing will cost money. At least I am getting a raise, and my family Christmas is going to be on Jan. 1, so one more paycheck for me there.

Okay sorry for the bitching.

Do you ever get excited over dumb stuff? I most definitely do. Rob and I decided to join our car insurances together. I currently have Progressive. Rob went online to get a quote. It came up really cheap. I called to see if I could get that price and cancel mine. I was transferred to a couple people because the first guy didn't get the same price we did online. The last guy was awesome. He complimented Rob on how he got it so low and fixed us right up. The excitement for me came from the customer service. It was amazing and I really liked the guy helping us.

There's nothing wrong with me I found out today. Well as far as my blood is concerned. I had blood drawn on the 31st and my doctor was confident that nothing was wrong so we scheduled an appointment for January to talk about it. Last Thursday I got a call from the health clinic saying that Dr. Bach needed to see me as soon as possible because my results were in. I was flipping out for a week about this. Thinking the worst thing ever. I go in today and all I have is high cholesterol. That's it. Nothing more serious. I told the doctor I had been flipping out because of what the nurse told me about getting in asap. Also I'm almost out of drugs and need more samples or a prescription. That's going to take until Monday or Tuesday. I was suppose to hear from Metro Health to get me in to see a specialist to look at my throat. They haven't called yet because the health clinic hasn't faxed them my paper work. That was suppose to happen two weeks ago. The pains I've been having since August are still around I told my doctor. Oh those are still there? you need to see a neurologist about that. Fucking great why didn't you tell me this months ago you jack ass. I am so pissed about all of this.I'm going drinking tonight.

bad blood

Girls I've been a little lax with my gym goings so far this week. I didn't go on Monday, but Rob and I registered for wedding gifts at two places. My legs were killing me so I'm counting that as work out. Tuesday was election day, so lots of TV watching. Wednesday I did go. Spent about 20 minutes on the treadmill before the back of my heel started to bleed. Apparently my right foot is longer than my left or something like that. I don't know. But once I was done on the machine I went to step off and fell. I wish I could tell you it was hysterical with the belt still running and all that. Nope just a boring fall. Now we come to today. I was all pumped. I was going to go through my shoes and find different ones to wear. I clocked out of work about 5 minutes early (shhhh don't tell anyone) I had a voice mail and three missed calls from my doctors office. Last week I had blood drawn and an appointment in January to talk to the doctor about it. The voice mail said that my doctor needed to see me about the test results as soon as possible, he next open appointment. Of course the nurse couldn't tell me anything.

But what could be wrong with me that I have to come in so early??? I mean January was good enough if there wasn't anything wrong. I was/am flipping out. Needless to say I didn't go to the gym today. This is going to eat at me for an entire week. I couldn't get in until next Friday because of my schedule. Aggghhhh what am I going to do until then? I'll tell you what. Let this fester and boil until I drive Rob crazy with it. That's what I'm going to do.

Annoying people

I talked to the dumbest person at work the other day. Check this out.

I answer the phone and this female voice comes on and says I need to check my credit limit. I ask for her name and only catch the last. (that tends to happen to me) I pull up the account and it belongs to a Benjamin (insert last name here). The girl gave me the right last name. I start asking my security questions. There's a bit of hesitation in her voice. There's a comment on the account that says "Wallet stolen 10/31" So I know for a fact this isn't Benjamin. I try to call the girl out on it by saying I couldn't help her and she needs to go into the bank at this point. "Why? all I need is my credit limit because my card stopped working" I wanted to slap her silly and say Are you fucking serious? You want me to believe you are a girl named Benjamin? I did say this though. Well you have to go into the bank with picture id so they can be sure you're who you say you are. At this point most fraudsters would realize they aren't getting anywhere and hang up. But oh no not this one. She was still begging me to help her. She finally got off when I told her I couldn't help her even if I wanted to. How dumb do you have to be? If you steal a wallet you use the cards until they don't work then ditch them. You don't call the bank, who has caller id, and ask about them. Especially if you're not even the same sex and the cardholder. I ended up calling fraud to let them know.

Here's another story for you.

I was in Family Fare self check out. One women in front of me doing her grocery's. Something rang up for the wrong price and she turns to me and "wanted to ask me a favor. Can you please go look in the aisle and see if this is on sale?" Wait...what? No I will not. I'll do you a favor and watch your shit while YOU go look. I ended up telling her "No, I would feel more comfortable if you asked someone that worked here" She started to turn around to look for someone and ended up asking the people in the next lane if they knew. They were all like um we don't work here. When she did find out that it was just the white bread not the wheat that was on sale, am I a bad person for thinking yeah that's right, read the sign better crazy now you have to pay more.?

I know I've said it before but I love the feeling you get from going to the gym. I just got home and feel great. The past couple of days I've been overly tired and crappy. I came home early from work today because of this. I force myself to go to the gym and it worked. Although I still won't be able to stay up for the hockey game tonight. Stupid west coast and your late ass games.

This past weekend was busy busy. Friday Kat came over for the game. She sounded so cute. Her voice was going. I miss seeing her everyday.

Saturday the family went up to Frankenmuth for our grandparents 60th wedding anniversary. The entire family was there except my cousin Derek and Theresa (she had to work). Family pictures were taken, poems were read and chicken was devoured. We had to leave pretty quickly after dinner to catch the home opener of Griffin's hockey. Such a good game for it too. Less than 5 minutes into the game we score 3 goals. I think I'm going to like this team.

Sunday was dinner party and Shannon finally made it!!!!! I was very happy she could make it. It was a fantastic dinner. Two of the recipes were new and I'll make again.

I can't wait for next Monday. I took a random day off to use my left over time. If I was thinking I should have used it for Tuesday so I could go vote in the middle of the day.

feeling good

Petunia is finally fixed! Her brakes were going. Eric, Megan and my dad fixed her for me. Now I don't have to worry about my wheels exploding on me. Or being embarrassed at the squeaking when I pull up next to someone. It was bad.

I started back at the gym last night. I didn't get sick!!!!!

Trying something new

Rob and I tried 3 new recipes this week and I'd like to share them here in case anyone would like to try them.

Oven Fried Fish. Awesomeness. The breading was light, not too thick. This one is very simple and doesn't require too many ingredients.

Cube steak skillet stew. Pretty good, more up Rob's alley than mine. But I enjoyed it just the same. The meal is hearty and tasty. You make a gravy in the pan while the steaks are cooking. The only veggie it called for was peas. The next time we make it we'll put mushrooms in it and maybe some potatoes. They may be a couple things you'll have to shop for in this recipe. Worcestershire sauce and beef broth among them.

And the simplest of the week. Crock pot Italian Chicken. A few chicken breast, Italian dressing and mix, carrots and potatoes. Cook all day. The chicken was falling apart it was so tender.

I'll report anything new we try with my options. And seriously if you want any of these let me know. Or if you want to try any of them for Dinner Party we can do that too.

Fake flowers everywhere

Thank you to everyone that came out for my birthday party. It ended up being a really small group. A few people bailed. It turned out to be okay though. Instead of going to the club we all came back here and played games. There are some pictures on Facebook that I'm "tagged" in. I'll have some up soon. I just need to get them from Rob's computer. In case you're wondering,because I wouldn't tell anyone what we were, Rob and I were Thing 1 and Thing 2.

The new meds I'm on are working for the acid reflux, but I'm still having the pains all over my body. October 24th can't get here soon enough.

Work was interesting today. The automated system went down. We went from having 20 calls in queue to over 420!!! It was great for me. My computer went down for most of it.

It doesn't happen often

But I'm in a funk.

I finished out this two week pay period at 61 hours. Which is the highest in a long time. I'm still not feeling well and have forced myself to stay. It also helps that it's been busy to keep me occupied. I've started to get sharp pains in my body from time to time. The ones that worry me are the chest pains.

I had a doctors appointment today for my shot. The nurse that was helping me was the kind of creepy guy one. It seems like he's never sure of what he's doing. I started to ask him about this situation. He told me flat out I couldn't get help today with it. My appointment was for the shot only. Another nurse (one that I like) came over and said I could see the triage nurse. I talk to her, or rather cry to her. I lost it. I couldn't imagine having to wait two more weeks for anything to be done. I had a list of the next prescription for me to try in order for insurance to cover it. The triage nurse went to go see if the doctor could do anything. I ended up getting trial pills for 15 days, which will hold me over. Oh and when I told the nurse about my pains she said it could be a stomach ulcer. Nice.

I was still losing it when I got home. Once the dam is broken it's all over. I just feel like crap about everything right now. I'm not getting any better. I haven't been working very much. Money's been tight for me personally. I was told a comment about the financial state of my wedding that made me very upset and rethinking things. (not the marrying Rob part!) I don't want to be a burden on anyone. If it comes down to me having some money for the wedding or money going for things needed, I want the money to go for the other things. But then how could we afford to have a nice wedding? What would we have to go without? Could we even afford to have a wedding? That one comment has me thinking all of this.

My birthday party is tomorrow. I hope I'm out of this funk by then. I don't want to be like this. Right now what I want is Maggie Moo's to make me feel better, but I can't afford it!

It's not even 9:00 yet and I'm tired. So tired.

Quickie

Quick blog before I go to work.

I'm not feeling quite right. I went to bed last night feeling pretty low. (Reasons of my own doing... kind of) My legs were restless for a few hours and it kept waking me up. And I swear when I feel kind of bad going to bed my dreams are more vivid and real. When I wake up I wonder if I really did what I remember. What I remember from last night is once Rob got to bed. I woke up and was whining Loud. I threw my Pooh bear at him. I was kicking around because of my legs.

I have no idea if this is true or not, but if it is. Baby I'm sorry.

more of the same

There is nothing too new going on in my life. I'm still leaving work early. The new meds are either not working or still kicking in. I hope it's still kicking in. I started them on Thursday. I won't be able to attempt to switch them until the middle of October.

I have told myself I will stay at work the entire day everyday because I need to get my life together. I want to get rid of my black hair. It's going to cost a butt ton. That is my very short term goal. Long term there are a bunch of things. New car, money for the honeymoon, paying off my bad credit and such items. (I'm putting the picture of what I want my hair color to be in my cubicle)

Last night I reminded myself of a petty stupid little girl. I know why I get like this. It's my relationship defenses kicking in. They didn't need to last night. I'm going to work on this.

I accidentally called Rob "buddy" last night. He doesn't like it. We were talking the other day about the little things that bug us. And that was his. I was trying so hard too. It just slipped out at Meijer. We were going to get potatoes and I said I'm following you buddy. He stopped and looked at me. It honestly took me a second to figure out what I said. I thought he was turning around for something else. Sorry honey.

On a fun note part of our costumes have come in!!!!!! And I have a handful of people coming to my birthday party already. Oh and Amanda is coming home again next month.

How much????

I went to the doctor on Friday. It went well. I got my whoo haa test done. Then asked the doctor about my self diagnosed acid reflux. He was concerned and asked me all sorts of questions. He wrote a prescription for something stronger than I was taking, and wants to see me in 3 weeks to see how it's going and to run a bunch of tests. I left the office feeling positive.

Saturday I dropped my prescription off at Rite Aid. Rob and I went shopping. Upon ariving back at Rite Aid that positive feeling dropped. turns out my insurance doesn't cover it and it's over $100 a month. So the pharmasist didn't fill it. He was really nice though and suggested other things. Since I have no idea what I'm doing I said no. He is going to call my doctor on Monday to see if I can use something cheaper or cover by insurance. I really really hope there is something that can be done. I can't afford $100 a month, but at the same time I can't afford to have this continue. So to make myself feel better I spent my gift card I received from Rite Aid (I transfered a differet percription to them as well) on fun stuff. I bought some lip gloss and eye liner, a cooking magazine, birthday party invitations, and head phones.

Friday night I went to the Bridal show with my new friend Krysta from work. It was a blast. Very nice to go with someone who is a bride as well. We sat down and got our make up done. The chick was awesome and I looked good. I'm going to try this afternoon to recreate the awesomness. We got our rings cleaned. Mine was gross. I may have found where we will get the tuxes and invitations. Oh and this guy had a booth about using your Ipod for the reception. Which is exactly what we wanted to do. He would bring out the equipment for it and come pick it up after. Perfect. Now we would just need find someone to play DJ for us. With finding these things it's making it feel as if everything is coming together.

More crazy dreams

I decided not to post yesterday because it would have been full of bitchiness. Trust me it was bad. I do apologize if you had to hear my rant. And I thank you.

Lately my dreams have been very vivid and strange. Here's a couple that I like.

I was having an affair. I was single and the person I was having the affair with was Rob. He was married and his wife was paying me to sleep with him. I would get a certain amount per time. At first I didn't realize that's what she was paying me for. I also walked their dog. It was a Pomeranian. I thought that's what she was paying me for. I told Rob about this dream the other day. He didn't see the humor in it. He was wondering why his wife didn't want to sleep with him. I found the dream very funny. Even in my dreams I'm still with him.

This next one was just for me. I was at Bob Dylan's house. I was somehow related to him. He was my grandpa or uncle. I never did figure that out. Anyway I was at his house which was more like a shack. Something to keep him humble. Right across the street was the rest of his family. On the porch was a BIG screen TV. Bob would watch it from his porch across the street. He didn't have a TV. Bob was going to offer me a place to sleep for the night, but his shack was too little and there wasn't any room over at his family's house. I said that's okay my fiance lives one mile down the road and I'll go over there. The End.

Okay one minor bitchy thing. Why in every microwave dinner that I buy is there red peppers in the rice????? I know it adds color but why? I hate it.

chop sticks

The spa party was last night. It turned out really well. I was excited as many people came as they did. I really liked Sonia, the lady who did the spa. She was not as fake as some of the
spa/marykay/party people. She didn't try to push anyone to join (which can make people uncomfortable.) I ended up getting what I wanted with just one thing extra. Yay me. I hope everyone had fun.

I just woke up a little bit ago from the most disturbing dream. It started off pretty normal. I was helping this girl who had a baby run away from the baby daddy. He wasn't a nice guy. We were in some sort of subway area. There was an ATM that she got the last $5 she had. This guy went next and before he could put his card in a bunch of 5's came out and he gave them to us. I had them in my pocket. We were running around the subway and I lost her. This guy with a beard started to follow me. I think he saw the stack of 5's in my pocket. He came up to me and I thought he was just going to rob me. Turns out he had other plans. I started to fight him off, but I couldn't punch him hard enough, or bite, or kick. He ended up raping me. I tried to wake myself up. I can usually do that. Force myself awake so I don't have to go through it. Not this time. I stayed right in it. It was awful. People were all around and no one helped me. When it was done (and he took all the money) I found my way home and crashed in the big bed I had. Amanda was home and walked in my room to get to the sun porch. She didn't notice I was in the room and I couldn't bring myself to say anything.

Home again home again jiggity jig

Yes it's about 3:30 and I'm home from work. I hate my body. I missed taking my acid reflux meds on day and it sets me back so many. So I haven't been to the gym this week yet. I won't be going tonight, because I will get sick. I know this is all my fault and I hate myself for it too. But mostly I blame my body. I've never had this many problems when I was younger.

I found out today that the branch manager I had it out with on Friday did not call my boss to complain about me. Whew. I did tell my boss what it was about kinda of and I'm in the right. Not him. Funny thing he works at the branch by my house. I want to walk over there and yell at him. But I would be fired. Stupid head guy.

There was a training class today for 10 of us. We are running a pilot system for credit cards. We were hand picked by our boss. I feel as special as I can about a work thing.

Rob and I have figured out what we are going to be for my birthday party. But I'm not telling. You'll just have to come out. So start thinking about costume choices!!!!!

Legend......dary

Hehehehe to anyone who gets the last few titles.

I went to the gym tonight. I was going to take the Zumba class. My first one. The instructor never showed. So instead I did my circuit training with 3 miles on the bike. I have increased the weights on some of the machines. Mostly the ones that deal with my legs. It was too easy for me. I haven't weighed myself in awhile. I'll probably wait until the middle of the month.

I am reading Hotel of Saints by Ursula Hegi. It's a group of short stories. I just finished reading one from a women's point of view in an abusive relationship. It was I felt a good point of view on how the woman felt. (I've never been one to understand how someone can stay in that type of relationship) I could almost understand her point of view. It was sad and beautifully written. It made me tear up. I really enjoy her writing.

It's going to be.....

Labor day weekend was awesome. We went up to the cabin Friday afternoon. I ended up with the day off! I was a little worried about how I would feel at the end of the trip. Sometimes I can feel self conscience after a long time spent with the family. I know you are all sick of hearing but I don't feel grown up compared to the rest of my older cousins. I do feel a little more now that Rob and I are getting married. Well Saturday morning Rob and I were in charge of making breakfast. (breakfast burritos, which everyone loved) Usually the elders are up pretty early so we set the alarm for 7am. I didn't matter that the cooking was started at about 8:30, the fact that we were up for it made my cousin Melissa say we were very grown up. That was the best thing said to me the entire weekend!!! I will shut up about not feeling grown up for now.

I did go for one walk this weekend. We went rock gathering with the little girls. Rob was more into looking for cool rocks than I was. I just liked spending time with the girls. They are so cute. When we went swimming they were all over Rob. I loved the fact that he played with them instead of spending all of the beach time with the adults. Hahahaha I did something I've never done before at the lake. Had a beer while in the water! You wouldn't believe how many people were doing it. I guess I've never seen it that much before. We did tie dye on Sunday. One of the little girls who is 3 insisted on putting her shirt in every color. It didn't look all that great. It turned out to be the coolest color there. I want to so some more. If anyone wants to tie dye with me let me know!!!!!

wait for it......

This morning I had a dream that seemed real and like a good idea. I knew I was dreaming and said to myself okay when when this dream is over I need to act on it. My alarm when off. In real life I hit snooze and feel back asleep, and had the same dream again, but a little different. In dream world I thought I was really doing what I wanted. It wasn't until my alarm went off again that I realized I was dreaming again. I finally woke up and took action.

I just woke up from a nap and had a crazy dream. I was in Meijer with a couple of friends waiting for Krysta. (friend from work) When she got there it was my birthday. A cake was brought out and all of my friends came around the corner from the Kool-aid isle. The most exciting thing was all of my old friends were there. You know the ones you lost track off because you moved. For me it was a ton of Ohio friends and some from Mac Shack in Grand Rapids. One friend that was there was Newmeyer and his mom. After awhile the party moved to my parents house in the garage. It turned into an engagement party for Rob and myself. Everyone was there. Kat and Amanda were getting the food ready. Pizza in the oven in the garage. I was talking to Newmeyer's mom about the wedding trying to be real quit about my dress, not knowing where Rob was in the room. Kat came up to me and said Rob just heard about your dress. I went to go find him to see if he was alright with it, or mad at me. I saw his face........
Just then real Rob woke me up so I wouldn't sleep so long.

I went to the gym yesterday. I weighed myself when I was done. I am +6 pounds. Which sucks much ass. I'm not going to be able to go tomorrow. I am getting the car from Mom. I can go Thursday. Friday's out though. I want to head up to the cabin as soon as possible. I will take some long walks probably up there though with Rob. He just doesn't know it yet!

wait for it

Last Sunday was Dinner Party. It was so much fun. Thank you to everyone that made it out. I definitely want to keep this up.

Monday I went to see Sex in the City with Angie. I wasn't a huge fan of the show, but I liked it. For whatever reason I felt like I needed to be more grown up in my life. Like how I'm acting now is just a phase, that I'm not a real grown up. I know what I would need to do to become more grown up, but I don't think I could give it all up. Maybe that's who I am. The adult that never grew up. The one that still thinks burping and farting are hilarious, won't match my socks, have and make Ugly Dolls, and all the other things that seem to be me.

I have to tell you about this guy that called into work today. As some of you know there is an automated system you have to go through before you get a live person and pretty much any big corporation. This guy gets to me and I say Welcome to the Bank. This is Brooke. May I have your name please? He gives his name. I ask for his account number or SSN. He says he just gave it to the other lady. (Automated system, I love when people thinks it's real) I apologized an said the numbers he punched it doesn't come over to me. No problem he'll give it to me again. The next thing I hear is this man punching the numbers into this phone!! What the hell? When he's done I tell him I need to to give the number to me. He punches them in again. I have to tell him that I am a live person and when he punches the numbers into his phone all I get are beeps and I don't know what the numbers are. He sounds confused and goes well I don't know what he beeps mean either. Then proceeds to punch it in a third time. I'm a little pissed at this time. He comes back on and I have to tell him again I am not a machine but a live human being and I need to to say the numbers to me. He STILL doesn't get it. I say sir I need you to give me the numbers out loud. Like if the card starts with a 1 I need you to say one, not push it in the phone pad. He finally gets it and gives me the number. Kicker is turns out I couldn't even help him.

Not good progress

I didn't go to the gym the rest of this week. I've been getting sick and having to leave work early. I tired to get in to see my doctor but he's out of town. Then I was going to talk to a nurse and got her voice mail. She never called me back and she's going out of town for a couple weeks. So I ended up buying some medicine at Meijer. I hope it works. I can't afford to not stay at work everyday.

Speaking of affording things, I can't. I want to get my hair done. I think I'm over the black hair. I now have to save up the money and decide what I want.

Tomorrow is Dinner Party. I am hoping it turns out fun as hell.

Pointy colors

Gym time!!! My favorite.

I did pretty much the same thing I did last time. Ran on the elliptical for 11 minutes then circuit then 2 miles on the bike. I made it all the way through without feeling/getting sick. Yay for me. The other day I had to buy new workout pants, mine had a hole in the back that could become a split at any moment. I had to get a new sports bra too. I must have gotten my old one a couple boob sizes smaller. I was falling out. I love my new one. It's bright pink and it fits!!!

Last night Kat came over for her birthday dinner. We took her out to Chinese. Very yummy. We got her this really awesome mosaic window wall hanging. I also made her her very own ugly doll. It's cool, I love it. (maybe if you're lucky you can get one too!)

Rob and I are trying a new recipe tonight. Roasted chicken with Basil Walnut Pesto. It's cooking right now and making our apartment smell kick ass. I don't see how this can go wrong. I need to get back into cooking more. Rob does most of the cooking. He rocks.

Things are gonna change......I can feel it

Holy Crap things have got to change. Friday night I surprised Rob with tickets to go see Pop Evil at the Intersection. I saw Teddy Doran. I worked with him at Damon's way way back when. It was nice to see him and easy to talk to him. You know what I mean?! You don't see someone for almost 10 years and you pick up like you talked to them yesterday. Instead of feeling all awkward and have nothing to say. So I was filling him in on my life. Just the big things. Getting married, four tattoos, where I work, and of course that I drink beer now. Hahaha and that I drink legally for that matter now too!!! Teddy filled me in on some of the guys. All of who still work at restaurants, Eric Deacon and Bill Palmer are both still in town. I wonder if Deacon still has my flute? Probably not. It was a piece of crap back then.

After Teddy went back to get more beer and hang out with his friends I got to thinking. The last time Teddy saw me I was about * pounds lighter. I couldn't believe I had gained that much in 10ish years. What the hell have I been doing with my body? I mean I know what I've been doing and where most of the weight came from. My time in Ann Arbor. I ate so horribly. I was depressed and bored most of the time. So guess what? I ate. I kind of got it together in Ohio. I lost 35 pounds, had to buy new clothes. It was awesome. Then I moved back to Michigan. Living with Jay was not helpful to my diet. We ate out so much. I gained it all back and TONS more. I've even gained more since Rob and I have been together. I know most people will "let themselves go" once in a relationship, but I was never together before the relationship. I have a long way to go. AHHHHHHHH

In other news I'm feeling a little less stressed about the wedding. Rob and I are working on a cost list. I feel good about it. He should be getting an email back soon about the tents, tables and what not. Monday I'm calling about pig roasting. We figure flowers will be awesome and inexpensive at Horrocks. (funny little thing, my mom got her flowers from there too) We found some invitations that we like. Here is a question I want to pass along to my married friends. How soon should you registrar for gifts? I have a time line from a bride magazine and it says 9 months before the wedding. That seems a little too early for me. Do you really do it that early?

BOOK REPORT
I finished reading The Deep End of the Ocean. I really enjoyed it. I had to make an effort to understand the character Beth. I'm not like her in any way shape or form. In the end though I did like the way she thought. She was stronger in some ways than I would have been. I don't want to say too much in case you want to read it.


*not going to say how much but it's enough to make me sick

Gym report!!!

I went after taking VTO at work. (we were sooooo dead) I increased my time on the elliptical to 11 minutes before the circuit. After the circuit I did the bike for 2 miles. It was nice. I could read while pedaling.

icky sicky

I went to the gym tonight. I didn't stay long. Monday and Tuesday I left work early because I was sick. So no gym for me. I made it through work and decided I could go work out. I ran for 10 minutes and made it through almost all of the circuits before I had to run to the bathroom. I hate my body right now. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think it might have something to do with heart burn/acid reflux. I'm going to try to get in to see the doctor soon. And to make matters worse I've gained 3 pounds. Crap. I'm going to try again with the gym tomorrow.

I had a dream that I was smoking last night. It was so real. The kind where I needed to check my purse to see if there were any in it. Nope. Hasn't been for awhile. Yay!!!!!!! At least I'm doing something good for my body.

Rockstars

Thank you to everyone that came out last night to see Amanda. It was awesome. There were so many people. Champs saved us tables outside with was great. And a very special thanks to my sister!!!! We couldn't have done it without her.

I was excited at having everyone there. It never ceases to amaze me the crowd Amanda can pull in. I love that everyone wants to see her when she's home. It's hard to put into words, but I can feel the love everyone has for her, and it makes me love everyone for that. I know that if I only came home about once a year I would want to see as many people as I could.

Next summer I'll see her more than usual with the wedding. I won't know what to do with myself. I'll probably get sick of her!!! hahahahaha never. Speaking of the wedding here is what's going on so far.

The date has been set. June 13th. We booked the chapel at Charlton Park. The chapel is old and beautiful. I don't think we are going to decorate it much. Let it's natural beauty shine, and that way I won't have to have family and friends do it. The reception is at Rob's mom and dad's. We'll have to rent a tent and all that jazz. After the reception there will be a bonfire for anyone that wants to stay. We'll be roasting a pig and for those of you that don't do pork there will be turkey as well. We want to make the sides dishes ourself. That way we will have exactly what we want. I'm recruiting volunteers to help us a day or two before the wedding. If you are interested please let me know. Yes it's a year away, but I'm trying to get things in order as much as I can. Well maybe not order, a good idea of what we have to work with. I was telling some of you at the bar last night. I don't want to stress out any of my family and friends. I'd much rather take that burden myself. This has a lot to do with how I am. I don't think I'll be stressed but I do like to have a game plan. I love making lists. My list right now is a very rough draft. With any luck I can start getting things crossed off.

So if you have any helpful ideas for me. Bring it.

Sleeping in

Sleeping in is a beautiful thing. The best thing about sleeping in today is I should be able to stay up late tonight. We are going to Champs to hang out with Amanda before she leaves. I'm excited. Oh check this out Rob and I have a taxi service. Megan is awesome and is going to pick us up and take us to the bar, wait for us to have boat loads of fun and then take us home. I love my sister.

I didn't go to the gym on Thursday as planned. I know get after me, but I have a very good reason for not going. Amanda called and wanted to get some dinner. Since I only see her once a year she pretty much trumps everything and everyone while in town.

Last night we had Jared over. (Little boy I used to watch) His sisters were busy which worked out quite nicely. He cracks me up. All the trash talk while we played the Wii. Jason, Theresa, and Drake came over too. He cracks me up too! Saying Thank You after everything. Giving kisses out when they left, even to Jared. Having the boys over last night got to me thinking about kids. Are ours going to be as cool as them? How will we handle the bratty times? Will we be good parents? I know that things will be just fine, we'll do a good job, but these are the things I worry about.

I'm feeling better today about the friends situation from last post. I think it's because everyone is coming out tonight. Granted it's to see Amanda, but maybe we can still do something like this all on our own.

I just got back from the gym. I took a step class today. Holy crap am I out of shape. It felt really great when I was done though. I can't wait until I could do that class with my eyes closed. The class was one hour. I didn't do my circuit training. Rob had started dinner. I didn't know how long the class was and I don't want to over do it too soon. There was a point when I thought I was going to throw up. Yikes. The teacher said I was picking up on the steps pretty quick. And I made a friend! Her name is Sierra. She wanted me to stick around for the next class, Zumba. I told her maybe next time.

Speaking of friendships I'm going through that phase again where I don't feel like an awesome friend. Some of it has to do with I'm not that close to many I consider friends. I'm going to try to be better. At least make the effort on my end. I know everyone is busy and I don't want to nag.

Rob is leaving tonight to his parents to go to Shipsawanna tomorrow. I want to go so bad. I love that place.

Here is my new blog. I figured more people might actually read this one seeing as you need a LJ account to read my other one.

This will now be an area for me to keep track of the progress of my life. A progress report of sorts if you will. Stuff like work, relationships,ideas, and mostly the gym.

I have recently become distraught with the way I feel about my body. I have joined a gym by my house and plan on going three times a week at least. I want to post how I'm doing. How long I've gone each time and what I've done. Documenting this will keep my ass in check.Which is a good thing seeing as I purchased a year membership.

I'm not going to tell you how much I weigh for fear of shocking you. I mean how can a five foot girl weigh that much? I'll tell you how, laziness. So instead I will say today I weigh X and once a month I'll get weighed at the gym and report +/- here.

Today I went after work. I was going to attend a cardio class, but my mom came over with two of my cousins. I wanted to spend some time with them. I went on the Elliptical for 8 minutes beforand after my circuit training. Yes I go to a women's only gym with the circuits. I like it though and love the idea of going to classes.

I'll attack other aspecst of my life next time. This girl is beat.